Crazy Hungry

I am a mamma of five boys who so desires to disciple them well.  In this journey I get to walk with them, I really want just one thing (which sometimes means three things 🙂  for them.

I want them to love Jesus.

I want them to know his nearness to each of them is for their very good.

I want them to be overwhelmed by one thing –  his grace-giving,  always forgiving love.

In my love relationship with my Father, I am seeing Him new as I am willing to face sins of my past that are haunting me in my parenting.  The baggage I started carrying as an adolescent  still weighs painfully on my back – heavy, draining, oppressive.

And I look at the precious face of my twelve year old boy, I beg the Lord, Let me not transfer this hurt to him.  He is too beautiful to carry these 25 year-old girl-burdens. It is time to lay them down. My Lord has been offering to carry them for so long.

I am humbled by the forgiveness He offers.

I am choosing to dig deep and root out the weeds that have long-rooted their way so far down into the soil of my life and slowly draw them from the dirt, one by one.  It will be a slow step-by-step action of my will.  But I am trusting Him.

There is no place for fruit bearing life to grow if the weeds are choking out life beneath the surface.

I invite you, my sisters in Christ, to walk alongside me and others who I believe will follow, as I brave this new terrain.  There will be hard grappling along the way, but it will be for good.  A present good and a future good. A good that will sanctify generations.

Here we go.   Crazy Hungry.